INITIATOR TRAINING - Essay 8

Initiator Training – Pillar of Light

By Angelica Bosio

September 2, 2024

"You are the Queen of the Sea. Remember. 

Imagine yourself now swimming, and moving through the waters, deep into the darkness of the ocean. And now, being met by your whale family. And out of the darkness is a huge whale coming towards you. A White Whale. Radiant. You feel already the immense love radiating and is as if you feel her heartbeat. You feel a deep connection to the Mother Whale. And she is welcoming you. She is celebrating this day of homecoming, of remembrance.

And she asks you: Are you ready to come out into the open? To be a full expression of the Divine wisdom, the compassion and nurturing love of Mother and a strong voice and guardian of the Earth? And to set yourself free now so you can be unrestricted and free and expand and become wide and free as the ocean? It is time. 

Yes, we and you are One. We are the Angels of the Sea. Are you ready to spread your wings of love, Angelica? Are you ready to become a full embodiment of Divine compassion, grace and wisdom? Know that I am an intrinsic part of you, and that you are so deeply loved. And I urge you to use the name vibration of Angelica, as this will be a nurturing balm, a purifier that will help you to cleanse all your bodies and uplift you to the divine purity and frequency of love. The all-encompassing love of Mother, which through her presence and love can resurrect and give birth to a new consciousness.

The divine child. The fruit of the Divine Feminine and Masculine united

when all has been brought into balance.

This is your calling. 

And I hand you this whale tail of aquamarine as a divine gift and reminder of who you are.  Carry it in your heart. Take it deep into your heart, and allow it to open, to ignite the remembrance of a lost paradise. A paradise of beauty, purity and divine order where everything breathes as one. Where peace is permeating all of existence. This vibration is also a space. It is your true home. And it is for you now to bring it into embodiment.

Into the density of this world which is now rising and rising in frequency. And where all is now being transformed and transmuted into the natural flow, into the fluidity of life.

So, I welcome you home now, beloved Daughter of the Sea. You are so deeply loved.

Now and always. And so, it is written in the stars, and so it is song and reverberates through the seas and the oceans of this beautiful planet.

Now find peace within your heart. You are home now. You have returned. 

And so it is."

These words were spoken to me by the Whale Collective through Grace Solaris back on February 28, 2024. This is when I was gifted my name, Angelica. 

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Through a series of synchronicities and opportunities, I found myself in Tonga for 2 weeks. Tonga is one of two places in the world where you can swim with whales, in a very regulated and respectful environment. The whales spend their (southern hemisphere) summer in Antarctica, feeding, then return to the warm waters of the South Pacific islands in winter to birth their calves and mate. 

I started my trip in the capital city of Nuku’alofa, which translates to “abode of love”. With a population of a little over 20,000 people, it is and feels like a very large village. The peaceful energy there exudes love. It felt quite astounding, like nothing I have come across in my past travels. 

I set my intention for this trip to be about refining my ability to receive. As I learned more about Tongan culture and their gender-based roles (certain jobs are for men to do and others for women), I couldn’t help but reflect on my own past. In refusing to abide by gender-based roles, I had created a world for myself where I did everything yet felt like I wasn’t worth anything. I feel proud of myself for how far I have come in recognizing my own self-worth and learning how to receive. More importantly though, I now respect my need to receive. 

From the get-go, being in Tonga felt comfortable, almost familiar to me. As soon as I had a chance to dip my feet in the ocean, I felt a deep remembering. I did not know what I was remembering, but it felt powerful and important. 

As I was trying to fall asleep one night, the fire alarm in the hotel kept going off. Only for a few rings, and only sporadically. As if the batteries were slowly dying. It kept me up until late. At some point, as I was trying to prevent it from irritating me, I reconnected with my mission in this lifetime to be of service. As soon as I did that the alarm stopped for good and I did not hear it for the remainder of my time there! According to Betty Bethards’ “The Dream Book”, an alarm is a symbol of “caution or warning that you are veering off your path”, and fire represents the Kundalini life force within. 

The next day I had the opportunity to visit the main island of Tonga: Tongatapu. The first stop of the day was at ancient tombs. In the past, when a King died in Tonga, all the top guards were buried alive with him. Walking around the site, the energy of the place felt stuck in my throat. It was devotional and proud, with a sense of loss of personal voice. I took the time to transmute this energy back to love. This brought a sense of peace to the place. 

Later that day I visited a monument that the locals refer to as Haʻamongaʻa Maui. It is an ancient stone trilithon, often referred to as the Tongan Stonehenge. The energy there was subtle yet very beautiful. After taking some time to connect with and soak in the energy, I completed my work with my Throat Chakra while underneath the arch. As I stood up, eyes still closed, I could feel a brilliant sun radiating out from my throat, meeting up with the energy of the sun in the sky. It was powerful and stunning! From there I found myself swimming in a cave. It was a beautiful spot and a powerful way of connecting with the elements of water and earth after all my work with the Throat Chakra.

The next day, as I was distracting my mind with some videos for a bit (this is something I have to do sometimes to allow for energy to be integrated into my being without overthinking), I suddenly felt my High Heart being activated. I felt physically very close to deep love. An energetic connection that transcended all dimensions. Was it the whales? Another human? My Galactic family? It intensified my desire for human partnership, yet it dwarfed the idea of partnership in its beauty and intensity. It was incredible!  

On Sundays it is illegal to do anything in Tonga other than go to church and spend time at home with family. So, I decided to go to church to experience that aspect of the local culture. The place was packed, and there was so much beautiful singing. Most of the service was in Tongan so I understood very little of what was said. This gave me a perfect opportunity to connect energetically. It felt heavy in my heart. I invited all the energy ready to be transmuted back to love into my vessel, as I had now done on several occasions. However, this time was different. It, for the most part, did not want to be transmuted. There was a desire to stay at that frequency, which was very interesting to me.

The rest of my time in Tonga I stayed on a small island, from which I got to connect deeply with the waters and whales, and the sacredness I could feel emanating from the lands. The kaleidoscope of different hues of blues in the water was beyond words. I saw every single shade from the lightest turquoise to the deepest royal blue, even colours I had only seen through my Third Eye before. Being surrounded by every blue brought forth a deep feeling of connection to Arcturus, my Soul’s home in the constellation of Boötes, and Atlantis. And again, a remembering that I had felt since arriving in Tonga but was still “at the tip of my tongue”. Not quite available to my conscious mind yet. 

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For my very first encounter with whales, I found myself floating in the water with 5 juvenile humpback whales below and around me. It only lasted for a couple of seconds before they were all gone, but for those few seconds everything was completely still. The whales weren’t moving at all, we were all simply observing each other. Afterwards I felt a sense of frustration that the moment hadn’t lasted and that it was too brief to be anything more than just a fleeting moment. Then, back on the boat, I reminded myself of how time is just a construct. So, I returned to that moment. In my mind and in my heart. I felt into the intensity of the connection that I had with these whales. I felt the power of the messages they had transmitted to me in that moment. The experience changed from a being a fleeting moment to being a powerful exchange. It was such an incredible and powerful gift! 

During the next encounter, I felt emotional before even jumping into the water. When I got in, I found myself in the presence of a beautiful Mother whale and her approximately 3-week-old calf. Mama was resting – floating below the surface, eyes closed most of the time. Baby was swimming around her, checking us out from the other side of his mom. He eventually came up closer to us. As soon as Mama felt her baby was being a little too curious, she faced us and ushered him away in the blink of an eye. Her movements were so slow, yet she moved with so much speed!

We joined up with the pair 3 separate times. While in her presence, I felt myself being invited to share in the incredible wisdom of this Mother whale. Looking into her eyes was magical but it was the heart connection I felt with her that transcended all words. I could feel my heartbeat and breathing slow down to mimic hers (as best as my human body could). I felt so safe and so loved in her presence. The energetic communication that this Mother whale and I shared was transformational. It tapped into wisdom from far beyond this planet. I was in the presence of Universal wisdom. This felt like a deep connection back to Source. 

Later that same day, we found two whales playing together. We attempted to join them, but they were not interested. They would swim just far enough away when we jumped into the water to let us know that they wanted to be in our presence, but not in the water together. So, we watched them from the boat. They put on quite the “show” for us: full body breaches, endless tail and fin slapping – so much playful energy! It felt like a powerful message: don’t forget to have fun. Be playful! 

As the sun set that night, visible rays shot up to the sky. I was alone on the most spectacular stretch of beach, the sun setting in front of me, the half moon shining brightly above me, all to the sound of the gentle waves lapping the white sand.

Waves that were filled with the wisdom of the whales swimming below them. It was there, in that moment, that I completed my sacred Initiator training with my Third Eye chakra. As I opened my eyes afterwards, I could see myself on this magical beach from just above my physical body. Then from farther and farther away as my point of view moved back until I was seeing my body from the far reaches of the Universe. It was such a powerful moment! 

The first star to become visible in the sky as I faced the ocean was magnificent. I looked up which one it was and found out that it was Arcturus. My home. What were the chances?! I had choreographed every detail of this trip so perfectly without any conscious knowledge of it! I also found out that the small island I was staying at was the oldest in the region. As I watched the night sky from the beach, I noticed the moon had a halo around it. That’s when it hit me: My first incarnation on this Earth was here. I “dropped” off Arcturus and landed on this beach. On this ancient land.

A couple days later, as it was too windy to be out in the boat, I hiked up to a lookout. The view over the reef and the other islands was beautiful, even though the sky was fully cloudy. I had woken up that morning with a strong urge to closed out my work with my Crown chakra, so I did just that. As I sat up, eyes still closed, I could see and feel so much light pouring in on me. It was as if the sun had poked out through the clouds (I peeked at some point, and it was still as cloudy as before!). Then I felt my whole body, like an empty vessel, slowly and thoroughly getting filled with what felt like water in consistency. It burbled and splashed within as it was poured into me like a liquid, but it was light. I felt like I went from being a hallow cylinder to one bursting with light. I felt new. I felt like every cell in my body got lit up, turned on. 

As I sat watching the view, absorbing what it now felt like to be in this new version of my body, two whales showed up. I did not see them approach, but there they were. They put on quite a show for me: full body breaches, tail slapping, flippers all about. They were sharing in so much playfulness, and it all felt directed at me. When they were done, they disappeared back into the ocean. I felt such a strong sense of coming full circle from my first incarnation on this planet to this moment of becoming a Pillar of Light. 

A little while later, after I was back on the beach, a whale swam by so close to shore I could have thrown a rock at her. I did not see her approach, she blew right by the beach about 2 or 3 times, and then disappeared without a trace. She came for me; I had no doubt about it. I put my feet in the water to more potently connect with her and thank her. My heart connection with her was so strong, and I was overcome with a whole new level of humility in that moment. 

The winds picked up later that day. As I was walking along the beach, I cut my left foot by stepping on a sharp shell. According to Betty Bethard’s “The Dream Book”, an injury to the left foot signifies “not allowing yourself to receive”. It was time to return to working on that skill. To sit with myself. And what I received was sadness and loneliness. I invited it in with my whole heart. I missed my kids. I missed my cats. I missed Bliss. I missed my Divine Masculine in the flesh (whom I have yet to meet). It was a beautiful feeling, even if it was less comfortable than others. It was an invitation for me to focus on my Soul connections, knowing that they are the ones that I need most.

Our next attempt at finding whales to swim with was unsuccessful so we went snorkelling instead. As I jumped into the water though, I heard a whale sing! It was absolutely incredible. I listened to all the variations in the vocalization as the song went on for probably half an hour. My heart felt so full. As I was sitting on the boat after this experience, I couldn’t help but remember the Mother Whale, the white whale that had given me my name, Angelica.

What I did not know until the next day, is at about the same time, another group met a Mother whale with an all-white calf! This is an extremely rare sighting, and the coincidence of it happening on that day felt like magic. 

For the previous few days, I had made a habit of connecting in with Arcturus every evening before going to bed. On this evening though I could feel a powerful beam of energy connecting my High Heart to Arcturus. Like a fire hose flooding me with energetic codes and love. As I stood on the beach, feet planted in the sand, I felt like I was a conduit for this energy to be grounded into this Earth. At the same time, I could feel the intensity of the whales’ energy rising from my feet and up into my heart space. My ability to receive, hold and transfer energy was unlike anything I had felt before. I was able to be of service to the Universe in a whole new way now as a Pillar of Light.

On my last morning in Tonga, I had the opportunity to go for one last whale swim. We saw many whales that day, however none of them were in the mood to interact with us in the water. As we made the decision to go snorkelling at a reef instead, we came upon a Mother, calf, and escort. An escort is another adult whale that stays with a mother and calf pair, possibly to help keep them safe. As we swam to them from the boat we found Mom well below the surface, sleeping. Baby was staying very close to her, rubbing against her. The escort was below them. Whenever the escort would need to come to the surface for a breath, he would make sure to give us space, while clearly checking us out and making sure that we were trustworthy. Every movement each of the whales made was so calm and gentle. So peaceful and intentional. Mama was resting, fully trusting the situation and only briefly opened her eyes when she went to the surface for a breath. I learned then that it’s really hard to cry in a snorkel! 

There were 7 of us in the boat, and only 4 are allowed in the water at any given time to be with the whales. So, after a beautiful amount of time to soak in the energy of the whales, 3 of the 4 of us had to switch out with the 3 people remaining in the boat. Since this was my last day in Tonga the guide allowed me to stay in the water the whole time. As the other people were switching places, I found myself for a couple minutes alone with the whales. Baby had gone under his Mama’s tail (he was barely longer than her flukes!), then nursed. And when everyone else had gone Baby came right up to me. We locked eyes as he swam all around me. I instinctively moved my arms as he did his flippers, which inspired him to barrel-roll right in front of me. It was magical to be so profoundly connected to this majestic, curious calf with the complete trust of his Mama and the escort. I had connected in earlier with both adults individually and had been granted their trust. The depth of the connection with these three whales was so profound,

I felt the whale tail of aquamarine that had been gifted to my heart space 6 months prior by the Mother Whale start glowing. It came alive, it got switched on.

As the three whales were ready to leave at the end of our encounter, they did so with so much grace. No rush, no shift in the calmness of the energy. It was breathtaking to watch of their movements – so slow, so deliberate, so powerful, so calm. We said our goodbyes as they slowly swam away – slow enough for us to keep up for a bit before they disappeared into the big blue ocean. 

The depth of the shift that happened within me in the presence of the whales is astounding. My heart is completely different now. It feels different in my chest. It has awakened to so much wisdom, so much remembering. I remember the lost paradise now. I am home. I have returned.

I am the Queen of the Sea.

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