INITIATOR TRAINING - Essay 7
- Angelica Bosio
- Aug 1, 2024
- 14 min read
Updated: Nov 15, 2024
Initiator Training – Crown Chakra
By Angelica Bosio
August 1, 2024 With my feet in Lake Geneva and my eyes up to the sun, I started working on my crown chakra in Lausanne, Switzerland. I had lived there from the age of 11 until the end of high school and hadn’t been back in 17 years.
Within minutes of starting my Initiator Training on my Crown chakra, as we were walking along the lake, my Heart chakra felt activated by a dark energy. The energy got stronger and stronger until I found myself across the street from the Olympic Museum. Lausanne is where the International Olympic Committee is headquartered. I immediately felt compelled to transmute this energy. It felt thick and so dark, and I got the strong sense that it was trying to intimidate me.
I sat in meditation in the gardens in front of the building and invited all energy related to the Olympic movement to come to me to be witnessed and returned to love. Throughout the process, my Heart up to my Crown chakras felt like they were overtaken by a powerful, constricting energy. I had the sensation of holding back tears in the back of my throat for a while, even though I was not feeling any emotions myself. At some point I felt like a giant black eye was staring at me, telling me: “We are watching you”. The energy slowly shifted from dense black to a lighter version of black, eventually breaking up and becoming a light grey. I was not able to transmute it into pure white, the remaining 5-10% was too resistant to being transmuted. I received the message that it represented the part of the organization that will be staying in this 3D reality.
The very next day we visited Caillers, which is the original Swiss chocolate factory. It was acquired in the 1930s by Nestle (which is headquartered a 15-minute drive from Lausanne). Through various parts of the tour, I could feel heaviness in my Heart space, and at times it made it hard for me to breathe. At the end of the tour, I took the time to feel into the energy in the space – it was a combination of sadness, pain and suffering. I once again invited it all in to be seen, at which point I could feel the energy cry tears of relief. I transmuted the energy back to love, I then invited it to spread that love back through space and time to all the locations around the world where people and plants had contributed to the chocolate coming out of this factory. It was a truly beautiful process.
My visit to Lausanne also allowed for a divine moment of deeper healing of one of my core wounds: not feeling seen. Despite having done much healing on this wound, I realized that it was still tender. An energetic punch to it certainly stung! However, I was quickly able to reframe my perspective and see the patterns at play that caused that punch to be thrown my way in the first place. I saw so clearly the wounding that had been passed down through generations, and the opportunity to create new boundaries to protect myself from being affected by it. These wounds were never mine to begin with! I broke the pattern of them being passed on to me and future generations. This process created the space in my heart that I needed to be able to send love to those stuck in these wounds in a whole new way.
As a Piscean, I rely on sleep so much to process and integrate energy. However, since starting my work on my Crown chakra I was barely getting any sleep, many nights only 4 hours total. Between lack of sleep and being surrounded by such dense energies, I felt tired. Bliss’s encouragement to keep transmuting energy was just the push I needed to take on my next challenge: to transmute the energy in the apartment where I was staying. This is where I had lived for 8 years through my teens, where so many memories had been created (some good and many bad). I was able to remove myself, my memories and experiences from the space and work with the energy as it was. Without judgement, without my mind trying to understand any of it. It was such a beautiful and powerful process. I invited all the energy that wasn’t pure love frequency in, from the past, present and future. I could feel it rush into my physical vessel from everywhere – from my toes to my Crown, front and back. I felt my body moving with the energy as I invited it in, and my heart and throat spaces opening wide to send it back into the space as pure love frequency. It felt as if it was raining crystalline bright light!
Later that day I transmuted the energy of the whole neighbourhood. And then that evening, a crazy storm rolled in. Very intense winds and incessant lightning that lasted for at least an hour was later followed by rain. There were no visible forks of lightning and no thunder, but the whole sky (which was densely clouded) was constantly being lit up. The air was so incredibly electric, it made me feel quite dizzy for a while.
There was a definite shift in the frequency after the storm passed. The energy was so much lighter. When I decided to transmute the energy of the whole region – a circle around me that encompassed the whole of Lake Geneva - the process felt so much easier than the previous ones. The storm had helped me clear so much dense energy.
At this point, I felt ready to complete my Initiator training with the Root chakra. I gathered a beautiful bouquet of wildflowers from nearby fields and found the perfect spot near a pond, under a young willow tree. I lay my flowers in a circle and sat in the middle. As I closed out my work with my Root chakra, all the birds that had been singing around me fell silent. I felt so strong, so powerful, endlessly expansive. I felt like my Root, my foundation, was the whole planet. The whole Universe. My Crown felt lighter than ever, and my heart space felt like it had grown a few sizes. I could no longer feel any separation between my feet and the ground below me. It was a beautiful experience!
On our way to the airport in Geneva at the end of our time in Switzerland, we visited CERN, which is the location of the Large Hadron Collider. It was a very pleasant visit energetically, during which my High Heart and Crown chakras felt activated. My Crown felt wide open as if a beam of energy was hitting me on the top of my head!
From Switzerland we headed to England. We spent a few days in London, where I picked up on some very interesting energy while in front of Buckingham Palace. There was a subtle quality to it, however it was also very persistent and sticky, and hit me in my Solar Plexus. My power center. It felt like a vice grip that was loose enough not to be too constricting yet tight enough to prevent the free flow of energy, and locked in place so that it felt immovable. I invited it in to be transmuted back to pure love frequency. It felt so deprived of pure love that as soon as it felt that love it let go of its grip and allowed itself to be transmuted.
Being in London for a few days I felt myself being very present in the moment, however it was more of a “survival” presence than being tapped into my internal landscape. Constantly wondering about which way to go, which way to look down the street before crossing to not get run over, and simply being surrounded by so much hustle and bustle was draining. It wasn’t until I was just outside of London on the train to Salisbury that I realized just how much of an energy vortex a big city can be.
My visit to Woodhenge (near Stonehenge) was a very special experience. As soon as I got to the outer edge of the circle, I felt activated. From the center of the circle, I felt like I was in a portal of sorts – connected to other points on Earth and beyond. It felt to me like the spot was energetically powerful, and the circles around it amplified that energy. It was such a beautiful experience of feeling into connection and Oneness.
The following day I visited the Glastonbury Tor in Avalon. The energy was so incredibly beautiful and serene, I instantly felt compelled to close out the Intiator Trainging work with my Sacral chakra. The process was beautiful, simple, perfect. It felt so joyful, my Heart space swelled in the process. On the way back down the Tor I visited the Chalice gardens and drank from the Well - a powerful way to connect in with the energy of this very special place.
On the drive to Glastonbury earlier that morning, I had suddenly felt a very strong energy as we drove by a field full of hundreds of crows. I did not think too much about it. On the way home later that day I took a different route, however as soon as it joined back up with the first part of the morning route, I instantly felt that energy again. Sure enough the crows were all still there in that field! I pulled over and as soon as I did the crows flew up to the top of the hill. My path was blocked by a gate (it was a private road leading to fields and probably a farm). After much debate, I decided to open and walk past the gate towards the crows. They all flew away however the energy was so strong and so beautiful in the spot they had summoned me to. There was nothing but fields all around (wheat or barley) - the thought of crop circles was on my mind! Seeing a crop circle was not to be on this trip though. The owner eventually came by and kindly asked us to leave, however the opportunity to soak in that energy was a very special and powerful experience.
On my last day in England, I woke up before the sun to get to Stonehenge by sunrise. As I looked outside, I saw a bat flying around just outside the window. According to “The Dream Book” by Betty Bethards, bats represent an “unknown power that hasn’t righted itself yet”. An auspicious start to the day!
Driving out to Stonehenge was magical: the sky was beautiful and clear, the sun not quite over the horizon yet, and there was a light mist on the lower lying fields. It was stunning. From the parking lot we were taken on a bus to the Stones. By then the mist had lifted just enough that the Stones were out of view until we got out off the bus and within a hundred meters or so to them. As they emerged from the fog and came within sight, I was overcome with an intense emotion. My eyes filled with tears. I knew in that moment that I was coming home. Joy. Ecstatic joy. It was overwhelming and so beautiful. As I entered the circle of Stones and stood in the center,
I knew I had been there before.
I knew that I had led ceremony from that very spot with huge crowds gathered all around me in the Stones. More tears filled my eyes. It felt like I was reconnecting with a part of myself that I had forgotten. The leader in me came alive in that instant.
After soaking in this energy for some time, I felt a very strong urge to close out my work with my Solar Plexus chakra. I did so in the middle of the Stones. As I stood up, eyes still closed, I felt as if I was a pillar extending out to the far reaches of the Universe. So strong. Stoic as the Stones around me. I felt so much joy. It was magical. It also felt like a powerful moment of fully leaving Sarah behind and connecting in as Angelica in a whole new way.
Back home in Vancouver I needed some time to integrate all the experiences from my trip. As I thought back to my experience in Stonehenge one evening, my past lifetime there came flooding back to me. I was a man with a long white beard, wearing a robe and cape of earthy colour. I was wise. I was standing in the middle of Stonehenge with large crowds around me, it was a yearly or bi-yearly gathering of sorts. The Stones were both revered participants and guests at this event. Everyone standing between them was very respectful not to touch them during the ceremony.
I invoked energies from elsewhere in the Universe to be drawn in. I spoke a language nobody else there understood. The Stones were amplifiers of the energy. We worked together to access the wisdom contained in the energy and transmit it to those present. We were co-creators in the ceremony. The Stones’ secondary role was to absorb and hold onto the energy that I was bringing in.
As I did this, I tapped into a wisdom that transcended that lifetime. The energy that I brought in was the same as the one I had experienced in Atlantis in a different lifetime. As a Druid I only experienced this energy during these types of ceremonies and did not consciously understand the connection to Atlantis (whereas in Atlantis it was a way of being). I did not understand the bigger picture, which was that
I was trying to return us to a society without fear, fully tapped into our power, connected through our hearts.
I did what my Soul guided me to do without understanding the importance of this work: to keep the connection with a different way of being alive. To keep that wisdom alive and store it in the Stones for future generations, while offering an opportunity to all the participants to tap into their subconscious remembering, if only for the duration of the ceremony.
My work to this point with my Crown chakra had been powerful and magical, and yet I knew that there was an aspect of my connection with the Divine that wasn’t yet fully realized. I could feel it physically at the top of my head: like a lid or cap that was loose but still stuck enough that it wasn’t able to swing open. I couldn’t quite put my finger on what it was that was keeping it stuck.
For a number of days, I got a very strong urge to be in water. It was unlike anything I had experienced before. When the opportunity came however, I could not get myself to either a river or the ocean. I wanted to be there, but I could not get past the (incredibly simple!) logistics of getting myself there. Figuring out what to pack and where to park was more than I could handle. As someone who has lived her life solving logistical issues even when it wasn’t necessary, this was something new! It came with a very clear, almost desperate, desire to have someone else do these things for me. Something I had never experienced.
Later that night I felt incredible discomfort in my body. I was hot, my emotional state felt uncomfortable (I could not put words on it beyond that), and once again I could not muster any strength to do anything about any of it. So I sat with it. I invited all the discomfort in, wherever it was coming from, for me to witness and sit with. It felt like the Divine Masculine (DM) aspect of myself had gone on vacation and all I was left with was my Divine Feminine’s (DF) desires.
It felt good to be so deeply tapped into my DF, at long last! But it certainly did not feel good to not have the balance of the DM present. For so long it had been the opposite. Ignoring my intuition and deep desires had been my familiar. I realized at that moment that in order to be fully connected to the Divine, I needed to be completely connected with both my Divine Feminine and Divine Masculine aspects first.
As I connected more with my thoughts, feelings and desires, I could feel my Divine Masculine deep within being a cheerleader to my Divine Feminine. I could hear him say “I am here, you are not alone. Feel into everything that you are and everything that you want. Don’t let me distract you as you tap into your full powers. And once you do we can truly work together.”
Following this, I felt like I went through a week-long system upgrade. My eyesight would be very blurry for moments here and there. My heart space felt like it was being transformed – this was uncomfortable. I generally felt disconnected and unplugged from myself. Within that time I methodically ensured that I addressed any last string of codependency with those whom I have shared this lifetime with. I found one person in my life that I had been putting on a pedestal in my heart and mind since early childhood. Understanding this dynamic made it easy for me to see the pattern that had led to it and release it. It no longer served me.
Then one day my youngest cat decided to spend the whole night outside. It felt like a test of any of my lingering desire to control her - cats are representatives of the Divine Feminine. Her choice did not bother me. That night I kept receiving the numbers 77 and 88 in my dreams. According to Betty Bethards’ “The Dream Book”, 7 is a “mystical number marking beginnings and endings, cyclic periods for growth and development”. Adding the two 7s together we get 14, the adding 1 and 4 we get 5. The number 5 represents “change taking place now or very soon”. As for the number 8, it represents “cosmic consciousness, infinity”. Adding both 8s together we get 16, then adding 1 and 6 we get 7 again. What beautiful messages to receive to validate the work that I had been doing!
For a few days after that I felt called to close out my work with my Heart chakra. On a beautiful sunny, quiet Sunday morning I chose a spot in my yard and sat down. As soon as I did, my older cat, who had miraculously come back to life a month and a half prior, nestled herself right in front of me. It was so special for her to come be a part of my Heart chakra journey! The process was so profoundly beautiful, filled with pure love frequency. As I opened my eyes, I was greeted with a thousand shades of green all around me. I felt such deep peace and serenity.
Later that day while participating in a group meditation, I experienced myself becoming a pillar of sorts. Similar in some ways to my experience in Stonehenge after offering my Solar Plexus chakra. I was like a gentle tornado of shimmering white crystalline light. I was pure joy, pure love. I invited in everything that was ready to be transmuted and sent it back out as pure love frequency. I felt myself too bright or even out of the visible range for some, and I felt a deep peace with that. I also felt ready to embrace my physical stature in a whole new way. I am tall and sturdy for all to see. I am the Glastonbury Tor, the lighthouse, the Stonehenge Stones.
I also later realized that I had felt that way before. I've had that role before in a past life in Atlantis. I had been the holder of frequency, the tuning fork, the transmuter back then. And here I am now, in this lifetime, working towards taking on that role once again. In some ways it feels so novel and foreign. Yet there is a part of me deep within that knows exactly what to do, how to be in this way. With my Divine Feminine now plugged back in, I feel I can access that wisdom.
The following few nights my dreams all had the commonality of me looking out of windows. According to Betty Bethards’ “The Dream Book”, windows represent the
“ability to see beyond a given situation; expanded vision, perception”
In one dream, horses (freedom, power, sexual energy) spooked cows (nurturing and feeding, sustenance through love; motherhood) into attacking a man (assertive, aggressive, strong side of self). In another one, snow (purity, truth, peace, relaxation) covered a landscape that never gets cold. Such beautiful messages of validation of the journey I am on once again.
As I have been settling into my expanded connection with my Higher Self, with the Divine, I have noticed myself shedding even more attachments to old ways of defining myself. I feel a deep surrender and acceptance to being comfortable with not being seen by those that are not capable of seeing me. My role is to accept them as they are, and not allow them to define who I am. Each one of us is unique. It is once we embrace everything that makes us unique that we can truly become who we are meant to be. I am my own unique blend of a human in this lifetime, and I am also All.
The energy from the Universe flows freely through my Crown chakra now as I work towards being a Pillar of Light I came here to be.
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