INITIATOR TRAINING - Essay 5

Initiator Training – Throat Chakra

By Angelica Bosio

May 26, 2024

My exploration of my Throat Chakra, from the moment I started working on it until the end, included physical symptoms. I spent the whole month needing to clear my throat (often every minute or two!), coughing, losing my voice, or a combination of all the above. Within less than an hour of the final revelation that this chakra had for me, all the physical symptoms disappeared!

My journey with the Throat Chakra started with a visit with a close friend. Many patterns in our relationship revealed themselves to me in our time together that day. I stayed in my heart, however our conversation somehow kept taking me to a place of feeling like I needed to justify myself. I felt no acceptance for who I am and what I believe. I realized that this was a constant in most of the relationships I have had up until now in my life. While I had been feeling worried and sad that this friend was drifting away from me, I realized after this interaction that it was time for me to create a new boundary with her. As this realization came into my consciousness I could feel a tightness in my throat.

A few days later I became aware of a pattern happening with my children when they were at their father’s home that goes against our previously agreed upon parenting style, as well as a pattern of lying that resurfaced with one of my children. I battled the thoughts that ensued from these revelations internally for quite some time: on one hand my children need the freedom to experience their lives in the way they designed it for themselves. However, it is also my duty as a parent to guide them as they learn the skills to keep themselves safe in all the ways. This felt like a big test in communication for me. An opportunity to use my voice in a heart centered clear and truthful manner.

First, I spoke to my child about the lying. I was able to create a safe space to draw out a flood of sharing and tears, and over the following days we had many more conversations that led to a complete shift in our relationship. So much beauty ensued. And when I brought up my parenting concerns to the father of my children, he was quick to thank me for bringing it to his attention and fully agreed with me on my assessment.

It felt very liberating to be able to use my voice to speak my truth in a loving way to create such positive shifts around me. It very much felt like a new way for me to be in this world. I now felt like I was in a “trance” – not operating within this dimension yet interacting with it intimately.

My dreams became filled with scenes where I was in the background, observing. In one of them I was taken out to a fancy restaurant however I did not want to be there, and definitely not with the person who took me there. But it was a nice gesture, so I said nothing. As I pondered these dreams, I was reminded of an activation and dream I had received a few months prior.

Following a powerful lucid dream activation that left my whole body vibrating, I then had a dream where ETs came to me and a group of humans. They were kind, gentle-mannered, and calm. They had a no-nonsense energy about them and were here for business.

The humans and ETs found their way to a big conference room to discuss various issues. I felt shy, apprehensive, cautious, yet curious. After standing back for some time, the dream culminated in me being a critical voice at the table.

With no sense of hierarchy in any way, I was truly a leader in the room.

The work that I have done around healing my relationship with leadership also came back to mind. It made me feel like unlocking my Throat Chakra has a lot to do with becoming the leader I am here to be.

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Following this revelation, several large solar storms hit Earth. Whereas I typically feel exhausted from solar storms, I felt so light and energetic, joyful and calm. I felt so much love and such an increase in my ability to see the beauty in everything. I felt the profound beauty of the journey my daughter has chosen through this life (not an easy one!) and the arc of our relationship so far. Everything felt whole and perfect. I felt so much peace and joy, and so light in my body as if I was floating around. I felt the depth of my own beauty, and the abundance of everything the Universe is. After watching the Northern Lights for about an hour I could feel them dancing within my body as I fell asleep. I was the Earth’s atmosphere, beautifully adorned in rainbow colours, dancing around the Earth.

A couple days later, on Mother’s Day, I was gifted 3 interactions that left me feeling frustrated. In the past I would have simply moved on from them as they weren’t a big deal at all, however I felt like I needed to learn the lessons that were being brought to me. Two of the three moments involved not having my time and space respected, while the third was about being wished a Happy Mother’s Day by someone under their breath, after we had spent a couple hours together and said our goodbyes. While it was very revelatory of a consistent pattern with this person, this felt like an opportunity to set new boundaries. To break the pattern. Which I did, and it felt fantastic!

At this point in my journey with the Throat Chakra, I noticed myself effortlessly sharing more of myself in the public realm through posts on social media. I came to understand that this work with the Throat Chakra is about outwardly expressing my new way of being after the work I had done on my lower chakras.

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I started to feel my self-love increase exponentially, and with that a distancing from all of those that don’t see and value my worth and everything that I am. I love myself way too much to surround myself with anyone who doesn’t feel the same way about me as I do. I don’t ever want to feel the need to justify myself. I want to be called out on the areas where I need to grow, but I don’t want to be put down. I energetically released all relationships that do not serve this Higher Purpose, and with this release I felt ready to explore true partnership. I felt expansive, beautiful, wise, grounded, connected, love, worthy.

Just like a pendulum swings from one side to the other, all the light energy I had been feeling starting with the solar storms shifted to feeling heavy and down. Like I was thrown back into this 3D reality with a thump. I felt sad and lonely – a longing kind of lonely. I realized that this was something I had never felt before and embraced leaning into what it felt like in my body. I felt hungry for a relationship based on connection. As I learned more about my deepest desires that I had buried in the darkest parts of my being, I could feel the free-flowing, open feeling of the energy as it travelled up my body until it got to my throat. And that point it felt like it was churning. It felt like it was slowly eroding away at a constriction that was still stuck in there.

My journey with my throat so far had been about using my voice to express myself in this reality. The next step was to tune into my inner-most desires and use my voice to express them to the Universe. And then it hit me: Using my voice is about expressing what my Higher Self wants to experience in this 3D reality. As soon as I realized this, my High Heart felt activated. I felt like I had taken my own breath away. It felt light and surreal, new, different.

Now I feel like I have simultaneously lost all control and am creating everything with such precision. The synchronicities are endless. I had a dream where I was pulling a hair out of my teeth. It went on and on for so long, the dream ended before I could get to the end of the hair. The symbolism of hair is power flowing from a higher spiritual center, and teeth represent speaking your truth. The very next day, as I was talking on the phone, I had to interrupt our conversation to pull a hair out of my teeth!

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